⇒ harsh times

the last 2 weeks at work have been a major kick in the gonads. WTF???!??! Work was pretty sweet and now all of a sudden I'm staying back late and shit? Get the fuck outta here!

I'm performing waaaaay beyond my pay grade and I'm contracted (as in binding legal document agreed to between 2 parties), yes, contracted to 4:30pm only. I understand that if once in a blue moon I gotta get something done, I'm going to have to stay back, but these 6pm finishes are ridiculous, especially since I'm not being renumerated for it! I don't give a shit if you finish regularly later than me. You and I do different jobs--mine finished at 4:30pm, dick.

And another thing, make up your mind before you keep nit-picking my sanity away with 30+ revisions. FUCK, MAN! I'm a nice guy (I think so) but don't abuse the nice-ness! I got a dark streak too, and he's like that black fellow who lays mushroom clouds.

Positive: I'm a gddmn hero at work though...kept my cool, and rose to the challenge (fuck you bitch!).

On a lighter note:

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⇒ burned

an old (financial) wound was opened up today (thanks, DAD!).

Basically, he asked if I'd chip in, and I'm all like, 'yo, sure, but you gotta gimme time to save up n shit...I got other goals to accomplish first'...and he was all jokingly pressuring me to pay him back. So it was a joke but I think from my escalating tone of voice he should have taken me more seriously...

That shit hurts, man. When people keep spending your money and you have to keep putting off your plans for them. I mean it's not like I can say 'no', is it?

What really burns me, grinds my teeth, is that 4500 over 3 years at an average of 6% is close to $800. That really pisses me off. You go and fucken borrow that chunk of money from a bank and see how pleasant they are about getting paid back. And that was casual job money! Do you have any idea how hard it is to knock back going out just to save up hard earned Coles/Aus Post/Myer dough just so someone else could fritter it away? Why did I even bother to save? FUCK!

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