⇒ all time at once

just imagine these disjointed posts as being experienced all at once for me...if you can.

http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/26/costumes-of-comic-con-08-days-1-and-2/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/25/tera-patrick-hired-as-special-producer-on-saints-row-2/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/25/playstation-2-travels-through-time-to-kill-children/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/25/see-first-posters-date-for-max-payne-flick/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/25/rigopulos-on-why-air-drumming-doesnt-work/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/24/marvel-ous-new-ultimate-alliance-2-trailer/
http://www.joystiq.com/2008/07/24/wallace-and-gromit-go-episodic-with-telltale/

gave my sister a belated gift--that Cities of Gold DVD set. She absolutely loved it! A genuine reaction to it--she was thrilled with it and almost hysterical.
Suddenly, I realized/remembered that I was supposed to be bitter and jealous of her--I've felt that way all week and it's cast an extreme pallor over each and every day.
I don't know why but at that moment I suddenly felt like 'aww, it's ok, why am I being such an ass?'. This might indicate that in spite of my recent dedication to 'selfishness, before selflessness', I may still have some capacity for redemption and 'good' after all. What is the distinction between 'what is right' and 'what is good', if any?
I started off today really badly, but everything suddenly turned around for me today--I've no idea how or why but things just fell into place today. Maybe it's me-my attitude. Something about me. I need to be stronger and change the way I am, cause that's the way it's meant to be.
I've rebooted my career and I'm only 4 months in the game, I need some patience...I can be better--I will be better. I will bide my time and in the end I will have proven my point: no one is above me. I'm just as good as any and better than the rest. All the pride and 'reputation' mean nothing to me--I'm my own man now.

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